worry..

I constantly have anxiety. The butterflies never go away. I have nightmares almost every night.
I have lost that home sweet home feeling. I hope that comes back.

I had a few small moments today when my worry disappeared...
There is nothing like the sweet, soft, loving motherly voice of your mom. It never gets old and it never ceases to bring tears when something isn't right. (you know those days you used to call home, sick from school and no matter what when mom answers you start to cry?)... yup thats what I'm talking about.

There is also nothing more comforting than a dads reminder that everything is going to be Ok. Dad's always know best. He is my biggest protector. I know he will keep me safe.

The company of a good friend who I trust and who knows me well is something I will always cherish. He looks out for me and has my best interest at heart. I also have the blessing of having an amazing roommate who reaches out to me and some nights even lets me share her bed:)

Tonight I had much needed conversations with my amazing sister and my closest cousin Bryn. Sometimes you just need the people you love to be there with a listening ear. Each of these people did that for me.

Last but not least I am most grateful for my Father in Heaven who never leaves my side.
I need him and he knows that. He is there for me. He brings me comfort and he hears my prayers.

I never knew I was such worry wort. Drama queen yes, but worry wort??  I guess being a 20 year old ditzy blonde who trusts and generally likes everyone needed a little eye opener. I hope this worry fades... living your life in fear is no fun. Reality is, the world is a scary place no matter where you are, not just in the city of sin. But if you are living your life righteously you will be protected.
I love you all!
xoxo - a girl in the city