A master cleanse..

Sometimes in life we get lost and need a rude awakening to open up our eyes. We need to refocus our priorities and find "ME" again. Who am I? What do I stand for? More importantly, what are my eternal goals in life? I like these kind of awakenings. I will admit the shock of hearing it from someone hurts but the evaluation part is refreshing. It's like a big fat life CLEANSE. I love that word! Just reading and writing it makes me feel pure and fresh and rejuvenated. You know that feeling like after you clean out your closet, or organize the "crap drawer", or the week you start a new diet? Yes that's what I'm talking about! My life cleanse began two days ago. I already feel like a new person. I wont bore you by going into the details but I will say that giving up that self absorbing FB page has been a perfect starting point for me. I find myself with spare time to focus on what's really important. Along with plenty of time to start my scrapbook calendar! (sorry it took so long, photos below just for you mom!!) Yes the photo/page stalking, wedding announcements and cute comments are exciting but a little time away is just what I need. I can't keep living through other peoples lives and wondering what my life would have been like" if".... I need to live mine now, just the way it is. I am SO blessed. I love my life, I love my family and I love my job. I wouldn't want to be in anyone elses shoes. Mine are plenty big to fill. In the long run all I want is for my Heavenly Father to be proud of the decisions I am making. To be proud of the woman /wife/mother/grandmother that I will be someday. I know he has a plan for each of us and I know everything happens for a reason. I am so grateful for this cleansing period in my life. I want to share a scripture I came across tonight. 1 John 3:2-3 it reads: "Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is. And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure." - I know everyone relates to scriptures differently but this one tonight was written for me. I needed to read that. I love making small changes in my life that have big results in only a few days. Talk about prayers being answered. I am making changes. I am Happy. I hope you find something small to cleanse in your life. There is no better feeling that being pure and clean. Have a wonderful week! xoxo- a girl in the city

Christmas scrapbook calendar!

Mother's Day 2010

I found this quote on somebody else's blog but I just had to share:

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.

I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived." — Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Happy Mothers day to all the Mom's in my life! I hope one day to be a mother and to be able to teach my children how to really live! I have been blessed with the most amazing mother. I look up to her in everything she does. One day I hope to be as strong and beautiful as she is. I love you mom, always remember that! xoxoxo

The cast with Tabitha after camera blocking for DWTS!

5,4,3,2,1...action!

Viva Elvis aired on DWTS yesterday night. Life is full of ups and downs and this was definitely an UP moment for me!! What a RUSH!!! The moment I walked on the stage in front of the cameras where 28 million people would be watching along with the live audience, all I could say to myself was " Breath and soak it ALL in". I wanted to remember every feeling that was racing through my body at that very moment. I wanted to remember the sound of the audience cheering as we entered the stage. I wanted to remember the look on my sisters face when I first saw her in the audience. I wanted to remember the feeling of confidence and peace her beautiful smile gave me. I wanted to remember that feeling of mine and Fred's hands quivering together as we hit our opening pose. I wanted to remember that sound of the directors voice when he announced shooting in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, action! Yes ALL of this was really going through my mind as each thing took place. Although my mind was scattered and my body was going through a million emotions at once, the minute the music started I was back on track. I felt so alive. I never wanted that moment to end. Actually the gasping for air and burning of the quads could end anytime but the alive, free, happy feeling...that can stay forever! I love moments like this when I am reminded how blessed I really am. I had the most wonderful opportunity to be a part of this event. I got to work with Nappytabs again which is always amazing. And even more amazing to have made Napoleons FB status-just finished taping "Dancing with The Stars". Cast of Elvis were phenominal. Thanks for always working so hard and being professional. Watch 2nite on ABC. haha how cool is that? I got to have my sister and her friend Allison fly in to be there in the audience cheering me on! I got to have my long lost LA sister Mal there on the front row. I had my cousin Shanda there with a few of her friends who drove down from San Diego to support! Last I got to perform for Precilla Presley and our wonderful Director Vincent Paterson. Yesterday was a day I will remember for the rest of my life. It was an incredible experience and I am SO grateful I was apart of it. We went out to represent our Cast/family at VIVA ELVIS the best we could. I know they are all proud and there support was amazing! I can't wait for the next PR event...maybe the Ellen show?? xoxo- a girl in the city

So much on my mind..

I try not to blog about unhappy days but for some reason the last 24 hrs. is totally blog worthy. I wont go into much detail but WHOA talk about a whirlwind of emotions. My eyes burn from all the tears. My stomach has a constant flutter. . thanks to the nervous/excited butterflies. Basically the madness began when my roommates and I were given a 4th roommate. Hmm 4 girls in one house is never a good idea. We have our routines and rules and values that we live by. We don't need someone coming in and messing our little family and its schedule up. BUT..in all fairness we decided to give her at least a chance with a non judge mental first impression. Sadly she failed miserably. On her day #1 we arrived home late to a very unexpected, inappropriate, disrespectful surprise in our living room. As of tomorrow she's a goner or else the 3 of us will be finding a new humble abode. On top of that drama at home of course I had to have drama at work. Even though I have my dream job, sometimes its not always dreamy. Every work place has its ups and downs but being an artist and performer seems to come with a lot more emotion than other jobs. This business can be catty and jealousy is natural. At least whenever there is drama there is always a lesson being learned. At times like these I feel weak and helpless. All I want to do right now is curl up on my moms bed and have her fix all my problems. In the big picture this moment of sadness is extremely small and very unimportant. Even though it may feel like the end of the world right now I know in reality its NOT THAT SERIOUS :). I know deep down Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and everything happens for a reason. I am grateful for my trials and for these times when I feel sad because I know they are only making me stronger. Tonight I am missing my family so bad. There is nothing like the feeling of being surround by your siblings and parents who understand you and love you for everything that you are...Drama queen and all. I love my family with all of my heart and just wish I could be home for this one night. Anyways that's enough blabbing I must go to bed now because If I shed one more tear I may die from dehydration ;) To all of those reading this still this is your reminder to watch Dancing with the Stars Tue. May 4th on ABC channel 4. If you promise to watch I promise to do a special wink* or smile just for you. Sweetdreams xoxo- a girl in the city